Icing On The Cake – Come on the Journey!
10 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
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I was once told by a wise teacher, when I was 17 years old beginning the discovery of falling in love, to “remember, no one completes you. You are whole, like a baked cake, and the relationships are the icing on that cake”. Here I am, years later, hearing these words over and over again. As I approach 40, feeling lost and not myself, I decided to begin a journey to find the cake, the truth of being me, and share this journey with all of you sweet women.
I want you to know that this blog is inspired by a great love. Yes, you heard me correctly, a great love…that love that does happen in movies, such as “The Bridges of Madison County”, the love that some say it is not possible. A powerful love of 11 years that I am still desiring in my heart. Yes I am not with this person in my life, but the feelings never leave me, just like a widow for her passed on husband. What I have come to understand about women, such as myself, is that we are capable of holding deep secrets in our hearts. We walk through life loosing ourselves in our expected roles and as we smile, our hearts and spirits long for desired dreams. Our culture, and we know for sure other cultures, might even suggest that our dreams are not to be trusted or followed, for it is a sin to do so. I am in this dilemma right now. I have been to counseling, talked my friends ears off, numbed myself, screamed, hit pillows in healing classes, prayed, meditated, well you name it, over the past 11 years I have tried it all and you know what? The love is still alive in me…still kicking like a baby waiting to be born. Spirit, (my word for God), keeps bringing it back, right into my face. BAM! What to do with this is yet to be discovered….The question is do I give up? That would depend on how my upbringing taught me on the concept of time.
So, I hope you come on the sweet journey with me. I hope we share laughter, tears, important thoughts, change, action, and maybe even find a small part of our selves again. I hope we all come to see the beautiful cakes that we are and all that is happening to us is that wonderful, gooey, sweet icing pouring into our souls. I hope and pray we all learn to trust what we truly feel inside and follow it fully.
In this blog I choose stay anonymous for certain reasons, but you can call me Elizabeth…and it is a pleasure to meet you.
